Of Kidney Transplants and In Search of Kidney Donors
For You, Mommy
I know you’ll never get to read this, but at least I can let the whole world know what’s in my heart.
Mommy, I know you’ve been through a lot of thinking and depression lately. Getting a news like that from your doctor, is not that easy. I just want you to realize, that no matter what happens, we – your children, will never get tired of finding out the right thing to do and the right option to choose in order to save you from this misery. We won’t give up on searching for the right doctor and for your proper medication. You may not see it in all of us, that we’re really concerned about you, but I’m wishing for you to hold on and just think that this is just another of those large cross, God had set forth for us to carry.
I longed for this moment, that I can get the chance to write what’s been in my head and in my heart from those years that I never get to be with you. I never had a chance to laugh with you as a child would do, when she sees her crush in school or on TV. You were not there when I’m starting puberty and wished to have someone explain to me why I was bleeding (first time that I had my period), before the nuns did in school. You didn’t see me cry during the times that I had my first heartbreak. You didn’t see me stumble and crave for a Mother’s love.
But despite all these, your absence taught me to stand on my own and grow up as a lady of substance. You taught me that distance can never be the reason for a dying love. You taught me that there will be people who will come into my life and may fill what you missed, but there will be nothing more important than a Mother’s true love to her child.
Now that it’s our time to give you back what you deserve, may you continue to be strong and have more faith to the Lord, that we can get through this. We’re all here for you. In behalf of my brothers and sisters, I pray for your strong will and patience, that in God’s time, we’ll be able to figure out the right thing to do.
Happy, happy Mother’s Day Mommy. We love you!
OMG its MOTHER’S DAY!
Looking back on the years when I was a little kid and was still active on church groups, I remembered making cutouts and form them into a lovely card for this very special occassion, and I will distribute them one by one to the ‘elders’ on our church community. It reminded me of the time that I spent paying attention to other ‘mothers’ than my own Mom.
See, my parents separated when I was in my Second Grade. Been staying in my father’s house with of course my siblings til I reach the age of 22.Have I not graduated from college and urged my parents to attend my graduation, I could not have felt that I belong to a family.
I also remembered that very day when for the very first time, my Mom just visited us in our then house in Antipolo. I was 20. Before saying goodbye and return to her house in the same city, she hugged me so tight that I know a tear could have fell, if only I don’t have that hatred for the things she did.
But if not because of the Tagalog idiomatic expression “Lukso ng Dugo”, I could have felt so numb by that physical action my Mom gave me. I just realized I was crying when I returned back to my room and thought about why she hugged me.
This scenario will never really get out of my memory. Because only then that I justified her action despite being away for years from her own children.
This is for you Mommy. I know you will never have the chance to read this, but I do hope, wherever you are right now, on this special day, you’re enjoying your life and loving every bit of it….with or without us near you =)
I love you Mommy. Happy Mother’s Day to you and to all moms out there!Ü
I held her on my arms =)
…for the first time, i held a small creature on my arms
…my half-sister who i still can’t imagine how she existed on this world
…my half-sister who i’m still wondering why my heart cant skip a beat by the vision of her
oOo
…but when i heard she’s crying so hard and cant sleep, i lifted her up, hummed a lullabye and much to my surprise? she fell asleep! Ü
oOo
…that was a good start though. i haven’t seen her smile yet,but at least i know she can feel me ÜÜÜ
New angel…
.o6o8o8.
.5:oo am.
i just had a new baby sister!!!
yifee!!!
oh well, its not obvious at home though that i am this happy for having a new sister…maybe because i still hv this feeling of… i dunno,loneliness maybe…
she’s actually my half-sister…my dad had an affair with this woman who ws once our helper.i was actually ashamed of it at first,but when i found out that she’s carrying a child out of my father, then i just sighed…i cant do anything abt it anymore…the child is now a “briones”.
and the good thing about it?
its near Father’s Day…i know my dad is really happy and blessed with a new angel…
and that’s all that matters now Ü
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